Smorty [she/her]

I’m a person who tends to program stuff in Godot and also likes to look at clouds. Sometimes they look really spicy!
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  • 5 Posts
  • 18 Comments
Joined 2 years ago
Cake day: July 5th, 2023
  • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto196@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Road RulegeEnglish
    6·
    3 days ago

    hmmm this a good question.
    here is why u do it:

    • it feels more comfy
    • it makes serious sad topics feel less raw and uncomfy and adult. this way it’s not all sadness and afult professionalism, but funner more funky language
    • it makes my comments somewhat unique
    • it makes it obvious that my comments aren’t LLM (ChatGPT, Llama etc.) generated / gives my posts a human quality
    • im pretty sure it’s also a trans thing for som. i kno that Lily and Max from the blahaj zone also kinda go that direction (and are also trans) so yea kinda that also
    • not realli to sound childish, jus mor fun to read i thinks <3

    i ki da wish more peeps would type like dis so I cud see how it feels to read this type of message from someone els!

    also, thank u for not going this weird bro, im leavin, but asking about it instead. That was very kind of u! ~

  • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto196@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Road RulegeEnglish
    13·
    5 days ago

    i hav never heard of this guy, he hav som weird hair. well yes, of course there are people who overreact, but like - i dun feel this is adding much to the conversation.

    i go: nunu, gender dysphoria very bad, do not give it to others. u go: this one apparently evil guy might give it to thers.

    or maybe im missing something here

  • Smorty [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto196@lemmy.blahaj.zone•Road RulegeEnglish
    88·
    5 days ago

    No.

    do not do this. gender dysphoria is unfortunately not som hihi im shy and slightly uncomfy now thing. it like - really gets u down.

    no matter how bad the insult, how bad the action or how genuinely awful the motivation, nobody. NOBODY deserves to have gender dysphoria.

    i wouldn’t want my worst enemies to have gender dysphoria. like - i wouldn’t even want big evil cooperate people to have it. I wouldn’t want Musk or whoever to have it, yes even tho he is very evil and non-human to his kid.

    The one exception would be Trump, cuz he would then have genuine empathy for trans people and hopefull do som gud stuff for once. it would support non cis-hets a LOT so i think it is a worthwhile tradeoff. Especially if Trump does end up transitioning, then it would all be good again.

    “living” with this insanely aggressivle hurtle in my head is so very like - it feels like self-destruction.

    me yappin a bit more (CONTENT WARNING: gender uncomfy feels. maybe don't read if u uncomfy)
    • The fact that my bodily hormones are actively getting me into a direction i really, really really really don’t want to go feels awful
    • Every time i move i feel evil disgusting uncomfy genitals which - they feel way more prominant than they should be i feels
    • uncomfy wide shoulders make me uncomf in every clothing, no matter what sex they made for. they feel genuinely incorrectly large, bulky and unpractical
    • awful ewewew please never come back feels when horni. like - imagine jus not havin that :o that’d be SO cool ~
    • even awfuler feels of seeing other fem peeps jus kinda - already being where i could not dream of being with literally <null> effort… ;(
    • less awful feels when interacting with comf transfems 🏳️‍⚧️ <3 who are already where i dream of being, while im still actively getting more disgusting manlier by the minute
    • jus - showering. the combo of havin to interact with disgusting parts, havin to rub stuffs over uncomfiest shoulders n ugl legs :ogre while also smlling ewewew uncomfy smells from body is jus - sucha genuine uncomfy thing.
    • voice evil- - voice like - is vrrri uncomf. onli one positive thing: i can sound like show moderator or bulshid “epic” narrator, but that’s it. is jus - so very like - no. i sound aggressive and angry and unpleasant and like - i rlli dun wanna!, i wana sound friendly <3 and like i wana make u happi <3 becuz i do!!
    • gender-non-specific one: i rlli dun like big adams apple. it’s just uncomfy in a physical way. whenever i lean back, it pokes through and hurts. sometime even when sitting nrmli, it hurts. touching it hurts. can’t wear som clothing cuz it press to much there (made for fems) and that hurt ;(
    • peeps seeing mi and jus - the immediate ah, this a guy realisation… it - it feels like - - like NO!! (im sorri for yelling but this rlli sad fr me…) i think i am: empathetic, mostly reasonalbe, logical thinking, mostly understandable and want peeps to feel comfy, i dun want to be seen as a selfish capitalist, or even a comfy male person. i much rather be super masc tomboy than super cutsie fem femboy.
    • big sads cuz complete distancing from anything dating… jus - me thinks im mostly lsbn so ys… but i dun am girl ------.-.- so . – -. i cand even like - present myslf as lsbn ;( m not evn as 5th preddi as womn ~

    that’s it, no more uncomf bullet points. this is it. period. i dun wana lisd mor. cuz - i imagine sad transfms or nonbinaries reading this an goin “oh no… this so me frfr skibidi pap pap” an i dun wan that. pls tell me if u uncomf cuz of this so i cn remove or change <3